Sweet jibbly Jibblets!

          Augh!

You were the first girl I ever laid eyes on

When I saw you, all my strength was gone.

And then, not two months ago, we were to be.

But it's not god's plan for you and I to be "we".

Sometimes I wonder...

Was it really God? Or did you just find someone else?

Someone instant and cool to fill inside yourself

because I really think you and I were meant to be

But you and I, are still him and she

Sometimes I wonder...

You find out once again, that you fell for another "ass"

it hurts cause your hand is all I wanted, and that you had to pass

I'm not one of them, I'm for you and I

So how is it this way? Why, why, why?

Sometimes I wonder...

I know you just want some comfort, in this life that is so rough

someone there to care, and give you just enough

I wanted to be that person, was it really Jesus?

I wanted to be that person, please, please us.

Sometimes I wonder...

The baby steps

It all happened so fast

I thought this strength would last

I guess that was just the peak

cause now I feel so weak.

I'm not the same I used to be

anyone would note by one look at me

but I hurt inside

It hurts to be alive

You are my one true love

Grace fell so softly as a dove

though my run feels like a walk

I can hear satan talk...

"Nigel, just go back.

I'll stop the attack

you must be wack.

It's the easy thing to do.

You know you want to.

I will kill you."

God take this pain away

that's all I can say

my heart is to much

I can't let anyone else touch.

Restoration is all I ask

is that to hard a task?

I guess I'm supposed to be weak

so your strength can peak

I leave myself behind

because I know this time

in my weakness I'm strong

why did it take so long...

to understand

your great plan

and be a man.

You want me to be

on my face in front of thee

so that "you" and "I" are now we.

Isaiah 12: 1-3

"In that day you will say:

'I will praise you, O Lord.
Although you were angry with me,
Your anger has turned away
and you have comforted me.
Surely God is my salvation;
I will turst and no bt afraid.
The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song;
he has become my salvation.
With Joy you will draw water
from wells of salvation.'"

It's funny how often I'll think the best scriptures come from the new testament. But this one and another that are my fav's are actually in the old testament.

huh, maybe God wasn't just some old fogey that needed a kid to brighten him up after all back then. lol

I would play this game souly for the crazy bunnies...

total. entertainment.

so hopefully you all watched that because I posted it...then someone finally put up the video I *really* have wanted to show everyone (which brian I know...you've already seen it) and for some reason...everyone thought it was a stupid trailer.

it rocks. what is wrong with you people?

You know...

there are too many things in life that are the most helpful that are not shared.

So I shall share something with you my fellow humans, and random martians..and brothers...just everyone.

My password is "brandnewday" and I have been having a crappy...crappy week. It's been very hard, I know it's good, because God and I should be getting closer, but it wasn't until I logged into my xanga, that I finally smiled...and it was a truly...joyful smile. Making a password for something you get onto a lot really helps. Something that reminds you that well...there's more to life than problems, or that you have a second chance, or that you are loved...no matter what by God. I pray that everyone uses something as a password to remind themselves, they're not alone.

So back to my post *changes password*, crappy week. It's been hard...taking a break, and not to mention that but my car kinda broke down while transporting four friends: nightmare. But guess what? Brandnewday my friends.

so yeah, thomas came over to my house yesterday for the first time, it was cool, we played xbox360 before we "surprised" stine.

Last couple of days have been...not so bueno. I havn't worked much because of the rain and when I have, I've been in the office, but you know what? Brandnewday.

I dunno, it's just cool, knowing...that blood is over me and satan can't touch me because of that, no matter how many hardships enter your life. God is good, and He is bigger than the problem.

My update on my life isn't poetic. It isn't flashy, cool or long (but it's longer than brian's). But by goly, God is good, and that alone is something to update about, because too little people don't actually fully get that. Not that I do...but you get the point.

*rambling*

love you all, I'm going to go eat a delicacy amongst my mother and I-chili and Rice. Good times, good story...